My Papa: My Superman …..

I was blessed with a gentle man who directs me with love and care. The first person other than my mother to hold me when I was finally welcomed was him. He always rules my heart with peace. And that’s my Papa. Having him I don’t need a map to position who I am, my identity derives from him and I can proudly declare that I am my dad’s factual daughter…..

There is always a place out of the ordinary for me in him. He is the reason of my existence. He has played many roles in my life since the babyhood and even in the present days. Along the time of me growing up: he has been my friend with whom I used to play with, mentor to guide me and love to shower happiness. He has always sacrificed his desire and contented life just to give me a comfortable life. Even through his tough time he never showed his pain and failed to comfort me and happily fulfilled all my wants.

When I lost my way and felt tired, he has always encouraged me to build up strength to go on and gave me hope. He always accepted my choice and never wanted to let me go against my will. He always taught me to grow strong and never to loss those strength in my life. He never complained about me being mischievous instead he praised me and loved me even more. He has worked really hard even in the dark just to light my future. Though words were very less to thank him for being around me and to explain how important he was to me. Today I want to thank him for protecting and accepting me for who and how I was.

He was my first love, my super hero whom I proudly call: My father! Though this daughter whom you have always treated like more than a princess has failed many times but you have always loved me for what I am. For this reason today I stand where I am just because of the love, prayer and strength that you and mama have built in me. Your belief in me is the greatest blessing on me and your every single word are wisdom which has always inspired me throughout my life.

At this moment your daughter has very less knowledge to describe how important you are but has very stable heart to say that you and mama are my strength, hope and the reason to survive. I am very proud to be the daughter of yours and I am very thankful for given me the name of yours. I have very limited words to describe how thankful I am for you and how I feel about you.  

I LoVe yOu PAPA……YoU aRe ThE vErY BeSt!!!

Yours loving daughter

Dechen Dema Gyeltshen.

I never would have thought that things could change so much…….

It really did hurt for the reason that it truly mattered to me. The worst feeling that I ever had was thinking that I did the best that I could do but at the end it failed to be good enough. I truly had no regret for which I have chosen but the endless thoughts of mine keeps on dipping off this heart with pain.

Back then it was very tough for me to believe in what has actually happened. All my dreams were shattered in just one moment of that time. The stubborn heart of mine suffered a lot just because even the tears were not keen to drift out to make it feel stable. All that beautiful words spoken turned into a demoralizing whisper. The taste of those days really did hinder me a lot in many directions.

That was the very hard-hitting moment that has ever happened to me. Never expected that things would turn out differently and leave a scar behind. Still than that was the best part to remember and moreover it was the worst moment that is long-winded to disregard.  

Who I am today is the same me of yesterday but the only thing that is weird is my feeling and the environment. With the momentary of time everything got established as nothing has ever happened. At this point I feel that whatever has happened did disheartened me but deep inside it only made me feel better. Once I thought that all of my dreams got scattered at that moment but I now understood that my thought was false, since that is not the actual purpose of breathing.

Absence of honesty and sincerity made me dishearten but it does not matter anymore because it is not my belonging. So this is something that I have experienced which is sometimes bitter but when I realize it, this is the best one I must say…for the reason that it made me understand the real feeling of me and my true destiny…….